"BUT GOD"

"BUT GOD"

WHEN MY MOTHER FOUND OUT SHE WAS PREGNANT SHE AS TERRIFIED OF WHAT WAS GOING TO HAPPEN TO HER AND HER CHILDREN, HER HUSBAND WAS OUT OF TOWN AND SHE HAVEN'T SEE HIM FOR ABOUT 6 MONTHS . HOW WAS SHE GOING TO EXPLAIN HER PREGNANCY, WELL NEVER THE LESS SHE HAD TO MAKE A CHOICE TO GET AN ABORTION OR KEEP ME WELL ,AS YOU CAN SEE SHE KEPT ME AND ENDED LOSING HER OTHER THREE CHILDREN , OUT OF IGNORANCE . I KNOW FOR A FACT THAT MY MOTHER NEVER FORGOT THEM CHILDREN HER WHOLE LIFE,  AND I THINK HER HEART WAS BROKEN ALL THOSE YEARS. ANOTHER THING SHE HAD TO FACE IS THAT MY REAL DADS FACE EACH DAY WHILE HE WAS WITH MY GRANDMA, AND MY GRANDMA FINDING OUT HOW MY MOTHER GOT PREGNANT , WELL THE TRUTH CAME OUT AND THAT WAS ANOTHER STIKE AGAINST MY MOTHER AND YOU GOT IT ME,  IT WAS TOLD THAT MY MOTHER SLEPT WITH MY SO CALLED DAD AND SHE LIVED WITH THAT LIE ALL THESE YEAR UNTIL ONE DAY SHE TOLD ME THE REAL STORY OF MY CONCEPTION. YOU KNOW IF YOU REALLY WOULD STEP INTO ANOTHER PERSON SHOES YOU END UP SEEING LIFE THROUGH THERE EYES AND HOW DIFFICULT IT HAS BEEN FOR THEM. WELL MY MOTHER ENDED UP LOSING HER THREE CHILDREN DUE TO THE IGNORANCE OF A MOTHER WHO WAS VERY YOUNG AND VERY VAUNABLE AND DIDN'T KNOW HER RIGHTS. JUST THINK SHE JUST LOST HER THREE CHILDREN AND WAS PREGNANT WITH HER MOTHER BOYFRIENDS CHILD AND DID HAVE A JOB,I ASK YOU WHAT WOULD YOU HAVE DONE IN THE SAME CIRCUMSTANCE? WELL SHE KEPT ME AND LIVE IN A MOTEL AND CLEAN ROOMS SO SHE HAD A PLACE TO STAY. WELL THE TIME CAME FOR ME TO ARRIVE AND ARRIVE I DID, WHILE SHE WAS CLEANING HER WATER HAD BROKE AND SHE CALLED A YOUNG MAN SHE HAD KNOWN TO TAKE HER TO THE HOSP. AS SHE WAS WAITING SHE USED A CAR AND DROVE HERSELF TO THE HOSP. WELL SHE HAD ME RIGHT IN THE CAR ON THE WAY TO THE HOSP. AS SHE DROVE UP TO THE HOSP. THE NURSES AND DOCTORS CAME RUNNING OUT TO FIND MY MOTHER COVERED IN BLOOD FROM HAVING ME THEY TOOK ME AND LEFT HER THERE..SHE ENDED UP WALKING IN AND ALMOST PASSING OUT..THEY THEN CAME AND GOT HER. YOU KNOW JUST WRITING THIS IS GIVING A GREAT LOVE FOR MY MOTHER, SHE ALWAYS TOLD ME SHE LOVED ME BUT I NEVER KNEW HOW MUCH I AM HUMBLED BY THE SACRIFICE SHE HAD TO MAKE TO KEEP ME.