'' BUT GOD''

"BUT GOD"

The Series

I am going to go through a whole year telling of the things God almighty has done for me, starting with my testamony, that in it self is a big deal because people like me just couldn't possiablity make it without God...I was born in the early spring and I am going to tell you how I was conceieved, because that is really how it all started. My mother was married to a young man who I never knew she had three children and her husband, was in the armed forces who had called her to tell her that he was leaving her for another, she had no where to go..imagine what she was thinking all alone with three children , and mined you this was about 1950's where you just didn't get divorced  can you imagine what this young mother was thinking, What am I going to do where am going to go? So she called her mother and asked to stay with her along with her three children..Well I am going to tell you what her mother was like, she was a drunk and slept with many men ,and my mother had to take care of her drunk butt all the time. Her mother was very mean and beat her all the time when she was little..so to think now she is an adult and has to deal with three children that i know she loved very much, and a drunk mother and now a man who was telling her he was leaving her for another...put yourself in her shoes for a moment...what would you do ...My grandmother had a boyfriend and that boyfriend was much younger than my grandma.. and he hung around the house alot, and knew about what my mother was going through one night overwhelmed with what she had to face she went to the corner bar and had a drink and sat in a booth by herself and cryed...I would of done the same thing to..she didn't know God and she was by herself in the world with no one she could depend on..Well who walks in the bar but my grandmothers boy friend who proceeds to walk over and sits in the booth of my crying mother

he asked her if she wanted a drink to which she replied OK.. and he was trying to console her when all of a sudden my mother woke up in a room sleeping in the bed of my grandmothers boyfriend, how did she get there,she had no knowledge of how she got there as she proceeded to get up she was thinking what am I going to do about this added thing I had to endure... I think he drugged her..then raped her, because that would explain  alots of my troubles.and so about 1 month later she was pregnant with me..oh hang in there it gets real good as I grow up and realized how different I really am.